[The announcement caught him off-guard, too, but not unpleasantly. Fred's been his older sister and his supervisor - the idea that she'd end up as his warden, too, almost seems like a natural conclusion. He's relieved, not only to finally have a permanent warden at all, but to have one he already knows and feels comfortable with. One he knows he can trust.
On the other hand, he's nervous, too. Permanent wardens get their inmates' files, so she's seen his whole life laid out on paper, or she will soon. She and Sephiroth are now the only two people who know everything about him, everything he's done, all his failures and weaknesses and stupid, selfish moments. What will she think of him?]
Um...hey. Yeah, I'm fine. Mm...no, better than fine. Took the Admiral long enough, but...I'm glad it's you.
You are? Oh, that's a relief. Really. I wasn't sure how you'd feel about the whole thing. I'm still a tiny bit wobbly about that, myself. But I guess this just means we've got some more time together, right?
[ She pauses, then, knowing what she should address next, but not quite wanting to address it. ]
I- I...know we're not on the Narrenschiff here. But I still don't feel right reading your file without offering something in return. And I haven't read it yet, just to be clear. But I was thinking I'd type up my history, and maybe we could go through both of them together? Then you can know all the crazy things my non-Breach self has been through, too.
[It's an agreement - more time together, which is a good thing in his book, even if some of it will be difficult.
He's not too surprised by her offer, knowing the sort of person she is, but he appreciates it all the same. Particularly since for the last little while, Cloud's started to feel the divide between himself and all his warden friends more keenly, for various reasons - and this recent "bill of rights" thing really isn't helping. It's nice to have a warden who's not drawing that line so sharply.
[ Fred doesn't care for the distinction, honestly. Especially the names. She signed the bill of rights because it's at least something? Something that they can mostly agree on as a way to treat each other. That it excludes half the population is a flaw, not a feature.
She smiles at his agreement. ]
Oh, good. It'll probably take me a week or so to write it up, so in the meantime...
[ There was something else she could do as a permanent warden, what was it... ] Ah! Right. I actually don't know if you've had any dampened powers or magic, anything like that. But if you do, I can ask for them to be restored. If you'd want that. I know sometimes they're more trouble than they're worth.
[Cloud knew this question would come sooner or later. He frowns, conflicted.]
I have, and I do, but...dunno if I should just yet.
[He glances down at his palm.]
Might make more sense once you read my file. I'm - I was a supersoldier, but how I became one...it had a lot of consequences, and it was all wrapped up in my sense of self. Thought I'd be able to figure out who I am without 'em, who I really am, before I got 'em back, but...
[He shrugs. It's hard to explain, and he's not sure he completely understands it himself.]
[ Fred nods, knowingly. It always comes with strings attached, in her world. She expected some hesitance. ]
Okay. Let's work through the file, and talk what we can out. And whenever you feel like you might be ready for 'em, you just let me know. The sense of self is the way more important thing.
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After the pairing announcement, video
Cloud? Um, hi! I really didn't expect- well, it'd been a couple of months for me and I- are you okay?
video!
On the other hand, he's nervous, too. Permanent wardens get their inmates' files, so she's seen his whole life laid out on paper, or she will soon. She and Sephiroth are now the only two people who know everything about him, everything he's done, all his failures and weaknesses and stupid, selfish moments. What will she think of him?]
Um...hey. Yeah, I'm fine. Mm...no, better than fine. Took the Admiral long enough, but...I'm glad it's you.
Re: video!
[ She pauses, then, knowing what she should address next, but not quite wanting to address it. ]
I- I...know we're not on the Narrenschiff here. But I still don't feel right reading your file without offering something in return. And I haven't read it yet, just to be clear. But I was thinking I'd type up my history, and maybe we could go through both of them together? Then you can know all the crazy things my non-Breach self has been through, too.
Re: video!
[It's an agreement - more time together, which is a good thing in his book, even if some of it will be difficult.
He's not too surprised by her offer, knowing the sort of person she is, but he appreciates it all the same. Particularly since for the last little while, Cloud's started to feel the divide between himself and all his warden friends more keenly, for various reasons - and this recent "bill of rights" thing really isn't helping. It's nice to have a warden who's not drawing that line so sharply.
He nods.]
Thanks. I'd like that.
Re: video!
She smiles at his agreement. ]
Oh, good. It'll probably take me a week or so to write it up, so in the meantime...
[ There was something else she could do as a permanent warden, what was it... ] Ah! Right. I actually don't know if you've had any dampened powers or magic, anything like that. But if you do, I can ask for them to be restored. If you'd want that. I know sometimes they're more trouble than they're worth.
Re: video!
I have, and I do, but...dunno if I should just yet.
[He glances down at his palm.]
Might make more sense once you read my file. I'm - I was a supersoldier, but how I became one...it had a lot of consequences, and it was all wrapped up in my sense of self. Thought I'd be able to figure out who I am without 'em, who I really am, before I got 'em back, but...
[He shrugs. It's hard to explain, and he's not sure he completely understands it himself.]
Re: video!
Okay. Let's work through the file, and talk what we can out. And whenever you feel like you might be ready for 'em, you just let me know. The sense of self is the way more important thing.
And I'll help you find that. I promise.
Re: video!
Okay.